THE UNSPOKEN-CLINCHES@22

How many of us have felt we have been socially and mentally obligated to do or be something we didn't want to at the time? How many times did you repeat the same mistake you swore you would never repeat? How many times you did something to impress someone just to find out that it didn't really matter to them? We all have done this at some point of life. Let's accept this. There are things and situations that are always "UNSPOKEN", because of one reason "Koi kya kahega ya kya soochega?", but non of us actually knows that who exactly is that "Koi?" Not only this i have done a lot of stuff to be socially the best! Had the best pictures on the social networking sites(one in a million), never dressed inappropriately at the parties(spending almost a month's salary! Yes, i have done this).

There are a lot of things that remain "Unspoken" by me which includes how badly it effected me when my boy friend ignored me in the name of work, friends, family or T.V. shows. Without even realizing the fact that i wait for the complete day just talk to him for few minutes, i never dared to explain him what i go through as i never wanted things to get messed up. But the fact is no one care, neither do i now(and i am happy being single now, it's the best feeling).

Even at work there were so many incidences, ideas being crumbled in my head and i knew that a confusing theory would be spilled out that wouldn't make any sense to me as well as the person hearing and reading it. It went like this. Before i bring this on, please know that this a completely personal choice and any other different opinion to mine is met with absolute respect from my end. I don't mean to put anyone down or hint anyone's lifestyle. So please don't take it against me. I do feel that the metamorphosis in my personality and in my perception of matter has been so different to my peers.

Few days back during our training sessions at office, i and one of my colleagues had fallen into an argument where she started abusing me and telling me that she would hit me back if i don't agree with her. I mean can't two people have different opinions about something? All i wanted to ask her was" Are you serious ? ", I looked again for a couple of seconds before i opened my mouth. Didn't know what to say and have never understood the fact that by raising your voice or throwing your hands at someone would the things be proven correct? If i was at her place I, probably, wouldn't made the same. But could i have done the same? Probably not. I have never seen anything like this in my family or school and cannot even thank them enough for that.

I agree to the fact that there can never be a " i won" situation, every where you go, but i often get a sneak peak of the relaxation when even i get a though that may be i am the toughest soldier of God that is why i get the hardest situations. Another incidence took place a day before yesterday, when due to some technical issues our office cabs couldn't be arranged for the pick ups of employees. Hence one of my colleagues was asked to pick me and two other girls in his car. He was late because of some problem in his family or cab not sure hence i texted one of my female colleagues that where exactly they have reached but in return she reacted in such an offensive manner, which took me shock, and made me wonder what bad did i ask her? Meanwhile, when i was trying to get an answer for the same, the guy gave me a call and on the top of his voice was asking me that where exactly my house is? Never understood what does it costs people to be a little mannered?

Anyways, i have come up with decision to be happy with people who actually matter. Please myself so that my carefree radiant life can share the happiness to the ones around me and not situational or momentary smiles. So, guys all i want to say is that speak the unspoken, just like i did here, not for others but to get the answers for you and your questions.