My midnight musings got me scribble in the "Social Obligations" tonight and my running year resolute to dealing with it in a better way. I think about all those years back in school. Growing up dreaming from one corner of my classroom, just a Nobody doubting whether she would ever make it to the other side of that room ever. And then I think of myself Today, still wondering the same.
These were the most painful days, with everyone gone I would think over if all these restless and anxious nights, someday would be worth it or not. The society sets hegemonic structures for everyone. The term Hegemony refers to the controlling social and cultural ideologies. These structures are ruling since forever predefining notions on how things are to be done by all and sundry. When in a small town the girls are not allowed to go out of the house after 9:00pm where as the boys can stay overnight at their friends house. They are still struggling with the blue n the pink colour. I sometimes wonder why the society has to (or should i say NEEDS to) validate your undertakings at every step be it being a successful person or a looser ?
So, instead of living obligatorily when you choose yourself over social standards you tend to become apprehensive, your fear let-downs. It is not easy but then no one said it would be, I may fail terribly or I may reach my purpose but I will learn. One can never know that he can win, until he is only left with the choice of winning.
I never knew what I wanted from life until very late. It took me twenty three years to apprehend my abilities and make my passion for the same to assert the presence of my insignificant self in this universe. Society never stopped me it only elicited my sense of self, and I embarked on this journey to self-discovery. It never should be an end to yourself rather a new beginning for what you are and what you want to be.
And, I have never felt this alive before!
These were the most painful days, with everyone gone I would think over if all these restless and anxious nights, someday would be worth it or not. The society sets hegemonic structures for everyone. The term Hegemony refers to the controlling social and cultural ideologies. These structures are ruling since forever predefining notions on how things are to be done by all and sundry. When in a small town the girls are not allowed to go out of the house after 9:00pm where as the boys can stay overnight at their friends house. They are still struggling with the blue n the pink colour. I sometimes wonder why the society has to (or should i say NEEDS to) validate your undertakings at every step be it being a successful person or a looser ?
So, instead of living obligatorily when you choose yourself over social standards you tend to become apprehensive, your fear let-downs. It is not easy but then no one said it would be, I may fail terribly or I may reach my purpose but I will learn. One can never know that he can win, until he is only left with the choice of winning.
I never knew what I wanted from life until very late. It took me twenty three years to apprehend my abilities and make my passion for the same to assert the presence of my insignificant self in this universe. Society never stopped me it only elicited my sense of self, and I embarked on this journey to self-discovery. It never should be an end to yourself rather a new beginning for what you are and what you want to be.
And, I have never felt this alive before!
